The Space In Between
how I manage the not-knowing
The title of this post is a little misleading, I must say. It assumes that I have figured out how to manage the space in between “things”… what to do with the silence and stillness that exists between project completion and the birth of the next idea. When I was practicing medicine I had no space in between, so I never had to sit with the quiet pause. Now I have nothing but space, if I choose, and I am learning that rest is, in fact, necessary.😂 Managing the not-knowing of that in between space actually looks like me appreciating the rest for about 24 hours, then getting really antsy. This is the deep work of de-conditioning from the hustle and grind mindset.💜
Yesterday was my partner Pete’s birthday, and I started by making him a home made card. That card turned into an intuitive reading as a birthday gift, and with Pete’s permission I am sharing some of the details with you. I am in between projects, and feeling much like a balloon afloat on a breeze with no obvious direction. One of the things that I have found helps calm the antsy feeling is to be of service to others… to surprise folks with little gifts or acts of kindness. At a minimum it gets me out of my head and in a place of gratitude and generosity. So without further ado, here is Pete’s Soul Map, and a few of it’s messages that I feel could benefit us all.
April brings blessing of the soft variety, and soft doesn’t mean small or weak.
This month, let’s all look around for the soft blessings… the kind that feel like grandma’s hug or the velvety ears of our fur babies. These are not the giant-anvil-falling-from-the-sky kind of shifts. These blessing are rooted in love and gratitude, and shift us INTERNALLY. Collected in the Ace of Cups, they bear enough weight to break the danger tail off of the snake. That cup overfloweth with joy, compassion, and well-being. New emotional beginnings. I certainly felt this shift… for me it happened last Wednesday.
About that danger tail…
The green Ouroboro has been trying to chop off the toxic danger tail (see the rattles at the end?) to no avail. This has him all twisted into a cycle of infinity rather than his normal death-and-rebirth cycle of a circle. This is a real “what’s the definition of insanity” type of energy… doing the same thing over and over while expecting different results. Where, in your life, have you focused so much on trying to carve out the toxic bullshit that you keep repeating the same old patterns over and over again? Fortunately, the Ace of Cups, filled with soft blessings and new healthy emotions, was like “I got you, boo” and just did the damn thing. Now broken, the danger tail can no longer tangle up the healthy cycle of the Ouroboro, who is now free to straighten out and find balance again as a circle. And look, not a drop of blood was shed. Cutting out that toxic person/place/thing wasn’t nearly the drama you thought it would be… a sure sign of all the healing work you have already completed.💜 For me, the shift last Wednesday in my internal emotional environment was enough to release the old pattern.
Your light, in a box
There is a lot to discuss with that golden starlight in the semi-permeable box over to the left, but the overall message for all of us is just that… create a semi-permeable membrane around your light. All the love you could ever want to give can pass through it from the inside out, but it is super selective as to what it allows IN. It’s OK to send folks on their way. Being discerning about who and what you allow in your inner circle is one of the best ways to honor yourself. This is not an impermeable fortress, it is a DISCERNMENT that allows compassion for all, and action for a few. One of my dear mentors told me once (about a difficult friend) that she loved that friend, but she loved them from afar because it was not safe to love them up close. To me, this is discernment that honors her soul AND theirs. A true semi-permeable membrane.
There is a lot more to this reading, but most of that is personal to Pete. What I have shared is translatable to us all. I hope you’ve found it helpful, or at least laughed at the thought of a danger tail. My lab also has a danger tail, but mostly it’s dangerous for any glass or mug on the coffee table.😂
If you’d like your own Soul Map, just send me an email and we can chat about how it looks. Until next week, may your April be filled with soft blessings, semi-permeable membranes, and zero danger tails.
with love,
Peyton